Humbling Thought!

I was at Monday Night Bible Study last night. I was sharing part of my journey with them and just rattled on and on. I tell you, since my surgery, I just can't stop talking. So then after the study while we were discussing things, I again had to tell a few stories. After study, several of these ladies came up to me and told me they didn't realize I ever talked!!! Some said, I just love to hear you talk; you are so encouraging! That kind of surprised me because I've always felt that I was a chatterbox. But here these women, whom I love and share everything with, didn't realize how outspoken I was.

I knew that I had withdrawn from life during the past months, but I don't guess I knew how much until last night. Even when I was still going to things, I was shutting down. I didn't participate, didn't comment, didn't offer any encouragement. I would sit in my chair, listen, and not interact with anyone. Apparently, I hid everything about myself from everyone who "shared my space". It's a wonder that I have any one - friends, coworkers, church family - that still has any kind of love and concern for me. And yet, I have sooo many people who love me and care about me. It is so humbling! And such a gift!

I have a lot of "making up" to do. I have so much giving to do to let these caring souls know how much their love for me means to me. In fact, I can never repay the gifts - prayers, prayers, prayers - they have given me. All I can do is my best to do what God wants me to do. I can do the best I can to make this new journey successful. I can do the best I can to show my appreciation. I can do the best I can to make sure each person knows how much I love them. But, my best alone will never be enough. God's grace is the only thing that will make my best worthy. And I pray His grace on all of us. That we may always do our best - to love, to encourage, to support. God bless us, everyone!